Voveo Nos

 

 

I love a good rebel. especially a good aussie one.

This is my crown of sonnets for Mary Mackillop. A woman of uncompromising values, strength & singularity of vision.

It tells the story of her life & struggle. A brilliant & inspirational story. I hope my poetry does it justice.

8th of August, 1909. 103 years since you left this earthly realm.

I’d say ‘Rest In Peace’ Mary, but that was never your style…

Instead I’ll just say

“thank you”

 

# A sonnet is basically 14 lines of 10 syllables written in Iambic Pentameter. My weapon of choice is the Shakespearean sonnet. 3 quatrains where the rhymes fall on the 1st & 3rd line & the 2nd & 4th. The end two lines are what are known as a couplet. 2 finishing lines (the 13th & 14th) that rhyme with each other.

# This type of poem is called a Crown of Sonnets. Basically, it’s 15 sonnets written in a row. The end line of each sonnet has to become the first line of the next sonnet & then the final sonnet has to be a sonnet that is comprised of the first lines of the preceding 14 sonnets.

# Voveo Nos means ‘pray for us’ in latin.

 

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Voveo Nos

 

This rebel born to sweet reforms amaze

This woman that no man will ever tame

This angel touching hearts with saintly ways

This gallant maiden, hallowed be her name

 

Our Mary walks the walk and fights the fight

This perseverance sets her life apart

Her journey thrust upon the path of light

The passion burns within her sacred heart

 

She smiles at each awaiting trial and test

A battling brave, the bride of Christ defined

A loving servant dwells within her chest

A skilled tactician lives within her mind

 

This warrior of heaven fights the holy war

A gentle loving soul within her core

 

 

A gentle loving soul within her core

With hearts designed for labour, love and toil

As angels born to spread their wings and soar

To till the common earth of southern soil

 

Amidst a crisp Australian summers morn

With cloudless heavens shining brightest blue

On January 15th she was born

In Fitzroy, Melbourne 1842

 

From humblest Scottish folk comes something great

For God has graced this girl with gifts divine

Our Mary born the eldest child of eight

Her Godfather, the kin of Caroline

 

This youngster’s special spirit soon displays

The soldier fighting errant human ways

 

 

The soldier fighting errant human ways

Her dearest dream is heaven’s great reward

Whilst fending for her family she prays

And counts the days until she serves the Lord

 

She hears the calling of an inner voice

She longs to help the homeless, hurt and lost

But father’s folly leaves her little choice

For meagre earnings barely cover cost

 

To God one day her life she will devote

But Mary’s kin have problems of their own

This girl must keep her family afloat

Before she serves the steps of heaven’s throne

 

With love she keeps the wolf away from door

The resolute protector of the poor

 

 

The resolute protector of the poor

Our Mary meets the man who brings the goods

A Priest of virtue, vision, faith and more

The young and charismatic Father Woods

 

The Catholics condemned, to wolves were cast

The government preferred to teach of tools

In 1851 the law was past

To stop the funding of religious schools

 

A charming priest, a man of great entice

They share a common theme, a dream to teach

With minds resembling lightning striking twice

Their fusion finds these goals within their reach

 

Penola, South Australia leads to Rome

This Aussie maiden travels far from home

 

 

This Aussie maiden travels far from home

With Father Woods her dreams and visions start

To gain the seal of Holy See in Rome

And found the sisters of the sacred heart

 

For Julian and Mary have a goal

A dream to freely educate the poor

To bring the word of God to common soul

A holy schoolhouse with an open door

 

On 19th March in 1866

She’s made the orders first and only nun

With problems, monies, rent and schools to fix

The troubled testing times have just begun

 

For every disease there comes a cure

For love of God and man she must endure

 

 

For love of God and man she must endure

For poverty, control and sacred pact

She suffers til’ the pain becomes inure

To keep the orders holy vows intact

 

Endorsed by Bishop Sheil at first

The constitutions doctrine soon incites

The local bishops want control dispersed

Now Mary battles for the Josephites

 

She steers the path the orders nuns must take

Refusing wisely to negate control

For convents sake, she puts it all at stake

The bishop excommunicates her soul

 

This course of action leads to Peters Dome

She takes her righteous fight to holy Rome

 

 

She takes her righteous fight to holy Rome

A pilgrim seeking blessings from the pope

By boat she takes the journey over foam

The Vatican’s support her only hope

 

Delivering her fervour filled demands

With strength she keeps her visions dream alive

Impressing with the weight of her commands

To see the orders doctrine will survive

 

For wisdom, grace and guidance Mary prays

Her reverent displays dispelling fears

Convincing Pius of her holy ways

She stays in Europe nearly two whole years

 

She holds her own, compelling yet demure

A pious woman standing proud and pure

 

 

A pious woman standing proud and pure

She stands defiant, shadow looming large

She thwarts attempts to make her dreams obscure

By those that wish to see her not in charge

 

Though Bishop Quinn expects to rule the flock

A Formidable force he soon will find

This woman’s will is forged from iron rock

No tempest, storm or man can change her mind

 

For Mary forged a path, she blazed new trails

With power, strength and will she took control

Within a church and country run by males

She redefined a woman‘s place and role

 

This clever strategist preserves with style

A life of vision, poverty and trial

 

 

A life of vision, poverty and trial

A woman of nobility abound

With poise she handles lies, deceit and guile

With quiet dignity she stands her ground

 

The stones are cast, the accusations fly

In vain attempts to sully Mary’s name

With saintly grace she holds her head up high

Whilst falling victim to unfounded blame

 

As Mother General she’s forced aside

And Sister Bernard firmly takes the reigns

But Mary’s never one to be denied

She fights to see her vision still remains

 

An iron fist within a velvet glove

A life of faith, compassion, care and love

 

 

A life of faith, compassion, care and love

A life of passion, penance, pain and proof

A walking breathing gift from God above

A living testament to faith and truth

 

When Mother Bernard leaves this earthly realm

The order soon convenes to make their choice 

Our Mary once again must take the helm

The vote is cast in one united voice

 

Her spirit strong and true, her body frail

The strain, demand and effort make her ill

Too gallant to accept defeat or fail

She runs on strength of character and will

 

The ecstasy of God is found in trial

Her struggles met amidst a knowing smile

 

 

Her struggles met amidst a knowing smile

The pain within her knees will not abate

She takes her baths to walk the extra mile

Her spirit strong can carry heavy weight

 

In Rotorua, healing mud anoints

As swollen sinews sting with pulsing veins

The aching hurting deep within her joints

Her ailing body struggles through the strains

 

This soldier puts her body to the test

She battles ailments with her brains and wits

A mighty muscle beats within her breast

She never gives up hope; she never quits

 

She stumbles, falls and crawls for church and love

Her life committed to the lord above

 

 

Her life committed to the lord above

Her time now ends; she leaves this world divine 

A soul set free, now soars with heavens dove

The 8th of August, 1909.

 

In grief, the whole Australian nation weeps

Her death is mourned across the countryside

To Mount Street Chapel, where The Mother sleeps

The masses congregate from far and wide

 

To pay respect to Mother Mary’s name

They come to touch her holy hands and feet

Her life adored by rich and poor the same

At Mary’s funeral they line the street

 

The sisters grieve the passing of their boss 

The saint of service, sacrifice and loss

 

 

The saint of service, sacrifice and loss

Withstanding pain and crippling joint disease

For love of God and heavens holy cross

This pioneer would walk upon her knees

 

When grieving hearts are lost within despair

And lives do hang upon the slender rope

When there is nothing left for us but prayer

She hears our calls to God and gives us hope

 

When shattered dreams from broken hearts are cleft

When life seems cruel and tragedies ensue

When hope is gone and we have nothing left

Within the hour of need, we turn to you

 

As boats adrift upon the oceans toss

Our blessed Sister Mary of the Cross

 

 

Our blessed Sister Mary of the Cross

Within your faith and strength we find belief

We pray to you within our time of loss

We pray to you within our time of grief

 

O’ Mary helper of the sick and poor

With love, we pray for you to cure the ill

Deliver up our prayers to Yahweh’s door

And plead our case to God and heavens will

 

This nation celebrates its holy Saint

She gives us miracles and hears our plight

She walks the roads where lesser hearts would faint

For even after death she loves a fight

 

Let each Australian child rejoice and praise

This rebel born to sweet reforms amaze

 

 

This rebel born to sweet reforms amaze

A gentle loving soul within her core

The soldier fighting errant human ways

The resolute protector of the poor

 

This Aussie maiden travels far from home

For love of God and man she must endure

She takes her righteous fight to holy Rome

A pious woman standing proud and pure

 

A life of vision, poverty and trial

A life of faith, compassion, care and love

Her struggles met amidst a knowing smile

Her life committed to the lord above

 

The saint of service, sacrifice and loss

Our blessed Sister Mary of the Cross

 

Voveo Nos

 

 

 

The Secret Life of Crows

 

 

Another Monday

& so begins the week

A day no different from any other day

Beautiful… Unique.

 

The sparkling lights of dawn enshroud the silver morn

They bring forth majesty, a golden tapestry of clouds that drift

They offer up a mystery

A truth to seek

A gift

 

A solitary bird salutes the sky

It somehow seems connected to the tree

Perhaps a mere illusion of the eye

Perhaps just symmetry

 

But underneath this dappled sun

Their natures’ dual, become as one

The withered branches nest as shadows light deceives

For feathers black as night give flight to barren leaves

 

What once was dead… now breathes!

 

I wonder what a person ever really knows

About the secret life of crows

 

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This world is glorious in its beauty. Nothing is ordinary. If you think I’m wrong you’re just not looking hard enough. Yes, I know. It’s not a crow in the picture… it’s a magpie. but sometimes magic doesn’t need to be explained. sometimes a bit of mystery & innocence is the magic. sometimes we need to make magic out of nothing. sometimes the mere illusion of hope is the key that brings us back to life. sometimes all we need to do is believe. for if a dead tree can have life, leaves & a heart that sings. & a lone bird & a sunrise can give our imagination wings. then a mind in full flight can do wondrous things!  

BELIEVE.

 

 

Persecution

 

 

Persecution

 

They burnt us to be pure

Their superstitions darker than their fears

 

In the woods we hid like rabbits

We ran beneath the shadowed canopy

And danced sky clad to the wind

 

Our ancient words gave us magic

Our herbs gave us the power to heal

Captured in the red firelight of morning

The purple skies of night held us entwine

The foxes knew us as friends

& the wolves howled

our names to Hecate

 

Older than God

Older than Zeus

Older than Ra

 

We are Woman

 

The earth turns

& we dance upon it in circles

 

Forever the same

 

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Why is God not envisioned as a woman?

 

This is a question that has often perplexed me. In nature it is the female of the species that has the capacity to produce new life & bring about birth & new creation. But for some reason we do not like to envision God as a part of nature. We like to see him outside the circle of things. We prefer instead to envision him in our minds as an omnipotent wizard waving his wand and creating life & living out of nothing.

 

The earliest and most primitive societies worshipped female deities.

 

It was only much later that man found the advantages of having a patriarchal God.

 

But I wonder what was lost in the process?

 

My question for you today is:

Why don’t women rule the world & what would happen if they did?

 

Let’s take a look at our closest genetic ancestors. The Bonobos & Chimpanzees. These curious primates share 99% of our DNA. Chimpanzees live in a patriarchal society that is rife with violence & confrontation. Intruders are dealt with in a harsh & hostile manner & there is much infighting amongst the ranks. It is a society that in a lot of ways sadly mirrors our own: males clamouring for power and position & in constant conflict with one another for who can possess the most bananas.

 

Now let us look at the Bonobos. Scientists hypothesize that the Bonobos or pygmy chimpanzee came about when the Congo River was formed nearly 2 million years ago. The two sets of chimpanzees were separated by these waters & their fear of swimming. But the Bonobos on the southern side of the river developed into a matriarchal society. They are peace loving promiscuous creatures & their society is free from the hostilities of their aggressive cousins.

 

How strange that basically the same creature can behave so differently when ruled by compassion & not conflict.

 

Elephants live in a matriarchal society. that’s why they never forget anything!

 

& what about bees. One of the most productive & advanced societies the world has ever seen. A colony happily ruled by Queens. Take away the queens & we are left with drones & a lot of angry stingers. Put the Queens back in and we get lots & lots of yummy honey & violet crumble bars.

 

Which would you rather??? A No Brainer, really!

 

& then there is the humble jellyfish, thought by many people to be asexual. But scientists have just discovered that male & female jellyfish do exist. It’s just that when the usually flaccid male jellyfish becomes aroused they tend to sink to the bottom of the ocean & drown; thus leaving the female jellyfish to happily float about on top. Actually, I just made that one up, but really what’s a jellyfish going to do with a penis anyway???

 

So, that’s about it from me. I feel I have well & truly proved my point. Women are by far the greater species. More advanced in every way than their hairy & brutish counterparts. Without them men would still be living in trees & playing with their own bananas!

 

Who would dare not agree with me…especially today

 

Happy Mother’s Day xx

 

 

The Risen One

 

 

The Risen One

 

Quaint, familiar

Breaking like any other day

No premonitions of what it would bring

 

No heralding to the new king

 

In the sleepy town of Le Cateau-Cambresis

Located on the far tip of France just near the Belgian border

 

New Years Eve 1869

Birth was given to the new world order

 

Freedom, Expression

Fauvism’

Art

 

He tore the doctrine of their stolid regime apart

 

In Morocco they say Matisse painted the Sun

He gave colour to the Moon

 

Ethereal

No; human

Crayon coloured light

Bold contrasts of Reds, yellows & whites

Ones filled with violet, orange, lilac, green & cerise

Paint me a new world Henri Matisse

A landscape filled with colours

Stark, shocking, and innocent

You make things beautiful

The ordinary wonderful

The droll magnificent

 

A perspective built on perception, of burning glowing light, of vitality

He understands what the canvas longs for, what it doesn’t need

The necessity; its’ organs, the colours it yearns to bleed

 

He feels

He simplifies

With intuition, emotion

He reduces form to a line

He strips it bare, back past bone

Back to its essence; then he dazzles us with his brilliance

His effervescent shining light, the singularity of his vision

 

The significance of his heart

 

 “Without Passion, there is no art…” * Henri Matisse (1949)

 

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I despise being contained by rules & regulations when it comes to my poetry.

Don’t get me wrong…I don’t dislike structured forms of poetry. Sometimes I love writing like that. I actually have quite a thing for Iambic pentameter, Shakespearean Sonnets & Spondee’s. 

 

It’s not the structure I have a problem with, it’s the mindset…

 

I was once told by an English teacher that poetry was just a particular amount of syllables arranged in a particular way & the art of it all was making something new out of them. Nothing more!

 

It made absolutely no sense to me. I felt she had missed the point of poetry & thrown the baby out with the bath water. To me, that’s the talk of a lion that’s lived far too long in the zoo.

 

To her I say, “There’s life outside the bars! Welcome to the jungle, Sister!!

 

The first ever poet didn’t know of rules. There were none. They wrote simply because something divine was singing in their heart. This is poetry: that spark, that essence of something intangible. Something invisible. A poet’s heart should never be defined unless they lose that most fragile of all essences – Passion!!

 

Imagine if you will a magic spell. Is it the form and structure of a spell that is important or is it the power of the magic it creates. Some people would tell you it’s the rules.

 

I tell you it’s the magic.

 

a classically trained poet with a university degree. a broken hearted teenager warding off thoughts of suicide. a parent expressing unbearable grief at the loss of a child. Shakespeare whispering words of wisdom or honeyed love. It doesn’t matter who wields these words or in what format. If they speak them with honesty & genuine emotion they will always resonate true. Beauty is found in its most poignant form when accompanied by an honest and innocent heart.

 

No mathematical equation relating to words will ever disguise this. The essence of poetry is what matters…nothing else!

 

Some people may call me a beast for this, but I say that puts me in good company.

 

Henri Matisse & his ‘Fauves’ are a great inspiration of mine. Roughly translated ‘Fauves’ means the wild beasts. The name came about because of a remark from an art critic. At the first showing of their work a Parisian art critic pointed to a sculpture by the great Donatello nearby & was overheard to say, “Donatello au milieu des fauves!” which meant “Donatello among the wild beasts!” The group of artists took the slight & turned it into a badge of honour & proudly called themselves ‘The Fauves”.

 

I love the fact that they did what they wanted. They defied the establishment, lived life on the edge & set their own rules. They dared to paint things the colours they wanted. For eg: grass could be red, the sky could be purple, the clouds orange, etc… It was all about intuition & freedom & up until then it was unheard of. The establishment hated it. It was brilliant & outrageous. & So Very Very Cool!

 

I adore Matisse. I love his work. He dazzles my eyes with his colours. He was so bold…he painted with his heart. He coloured this world with the brilliance of his soul.

 

I guess what I am saying is this:

 

Listen to that voice that dwells within your heart. Follow it! Fight for it!

 

Paint the skies purple even if the rest of the world tells you that they are blue!

 

& To Yourself Be True!

 

 

Haiku for a Poo!

 

Haiku for a Poo!

My search for the perfect Loo!!

At the Easter SHOOOOOOOW!!!

 

Some people search for The Holy Grail. Some people search for true love. My quest is for the perfect toilet at The Sydney Royal Easter Show. Ahhh! Such are the dreams of a simple man. My search began in earnest about five years ago. We had promised to take the kids to the Easter show & they were super excited. About 2 days before the big day I came down with one of the worst stomach bugs I have ever experienced in my life. I won’t to go into too much detail except to say that it wasn’t very pleasant. Anyway I dragged myself out of bed & off to the shoooow! Throughout the course of the day I had to make several trips to the loo & what I encountered were small grubby toilets with an endless procession of people waiting in line. I found myself thinking that there’s got to be a better way than this. There’s something very obscene about waiting in line to go to the toilet. I kept on thinking to myself, “It’s not a frigging ride people!” Especially when the guy two in front of you is still eating a hot dog & then after his turn leaves the cubicle & greets everybody with an apologetic, “Sorry Dudes!” 

 

 

NO!!!! I went home from that Show with singed nose hairs & a burning determination that things had to change. Never again would I be subjected to another, “Sorry Dudes!”

& So began the quest…

The next year I was lucky enough to find the adequate toilets located in the Howie/Dog Pavilion, just across the road from where they sell all the showbags. Very clean, well maintained & hardly used. This Pavilion is truly the pooping place of Champions – Portraits of all the past greats adorn the walls!! But, unfortunately they’re just not the two legged kind!

 

 

The year after that I got serious in my endeavour & became a member of The RAS. They had much better facilities, but they were still a bit over used & a tiny bit grungy for my liking. I knew I could do better than this…

 

 

 

The following year I stumbled across the little gem in bewteen buildings on the animal walk. Very nice for public toilets & hardly ever used. But, still… I longed for something with a bit more tranquillity, style & ambience. Are magazines & elevator music too much to ask for?

 

 

 

Last year I came close to perfection. Definitely, the best toilets I’ve found so far. The private toilets in the animal housing enclosures off Clarence Avenue. Very large. Very spacious. Luxurious even & also comes with the option of a shower if one so desires. Not bad, but still my heart or should I say my bottom yearned for more…

 

 

Then this year whilst looking for the Skyview Ferris Wheel I spotted it. Eureka! El derado! The Legends were True! THE JUDGES/COUNCIL SECTION of the main arena. I noticed they had burly security guards on the front doors carefully monitoring people’s comings & goings. The place looked harder to get into than Fort Knox & I thought to myself what could they possibly be protecting in there? Fruit cake recipes??

 

 

I took this photo of the front entrance. Sorry it’s a bit grainy, but I was trying my best to be covert. Notice the people being moved along by the expert people movers. You can almost hear them cooing, “Keep on Moving People! There’s nothing to see here!”

My arse there’s nothing to see here… what’s with the big expensive looking flower arrangement then!

& then it came to me like a flush of yellow lightning!! Like a bolt out of the poo!!

Those cagey buggers in their flash R.M.Williams suits & boots were keeping guard of the most precious thing at the Royal Easter Show. The perfect loo! I knew in a second what it looked like. I could see it all in my mind’s eye. The opulence. The Grandeur. The Sheer Theatre of it all!! Gold plated toilet seats. Marble bowls. A guy called Geeves to give you mints, comb your hair & perhaps even wipe your bottom. Music, magazines & perhaps even a little trickling waterfall.

 

 

I always thought the sign on the door. R.A.S stood for The Royal Agricultural Society. But now I know better. Yes, my friends! They are mocking us!!! They’re secretly laughing at us & telling us what they’ve got inside their facilities.

For what R.A.S really stands for is:

Royal Arse Shitters!!

That’s right, that’s where they keep The Royal Arse Shitters. The really flash ones!!

& I knew at that moment that I had found my Everest & that my climb would not be to the top, but to the very bottom of things. & next year I promise you this, that I shall gain access to the inner sanctums of The R.A.S. or at the very least give them the shits trying!! either way, I’m going to give these toilets one damn fine crack!!

Wish me well my friends!!

For it’s going to take luck & a hell of a lot of arse!!

 

 

Cyrano De Bergerac & his Cat

 

OH CYRANOSE

I SUPPOSE I KNOWS WHAT I KNOWS

BECAUSE OF YOUR NOSE 

 

Getting dressed up for the Asterion video started me thinking about some of the other times I have gone fancy dress in my life. I was sort of having a laugh to myself about book parades and other such things & it brought back some pretty funny memories.

Some of them possibly even repressed…

It started me thinking about some of the dodgy costumes that you always see at book parades. Go to any book parade in any part of the world & I’ll guarantee you will see:

a Wee Willy Winky costume – translation: parents forgot (1) = wearing the pyjamas you woke up in, a sock on your head & a candle in your hand.

Or The Ghost – translation: parents forgot (2) = worst sheet in the house with 2 holes cut out…

Still the worst costumes can often be much better than the best…

Take the following tale of woe, for eg:

I remember in 1st class one of my mates, Ray went as a Dalek. You know the killer robots from Dr Who. Absolutely fantastic costume – really elaborate & well made. It was sort of round & big enough to fit a small person in & it was made from some type of metal, which had been painted dark silver. It had all these buttons & gadgets glued to it & 2 big extendable arm type claw thingys. It had a thin eye slit cut out of it for vision & bars that you could place on your shoulders & lift it up with. His mum had to deliver it to school in a ute & his dad had spent weeks (maybe months) making it for him. It looked really realistic & Ray loved it – so did everybody else. There were only 2 problems with it. The first was that it was way too heavy for a little 7 year old kid to lug around. It took about 6 kids, his mother & a teacher to get the thing on top of him. So whilst everybody else would walk in a big circle around the playground about 5o times for book parade… Ray could only manage about 6 quick steps & he would be exhausted. He’d wait about 2 minutes & then he’d go again. 6 quick steps & then down. Classic! The 2nd problem was that it had no ventilation & it was a stinking hot day. After about 30 seconds in that thing he was sweating like a pig. So to solve the problem they put him in his undies underneath it. It was pretty funny! Every time you went past him all you could see were these fevered sweaty little eyes peaking out of the eye slits. The dude looked desperate in there. Then he’d take 3 or 4 quick steps & go down again. We still laugh about it whenever we see each other. On a happier note he did win 1st prize…

 I also remember some other absolute shockers. I remember my mum once dressed me as a leprechaun. Sounds cool, but all she really did was dress me in a pair of her green slacks, a very feminine shawl & glued cotton balls all over my face for a beard. I wasn’t a leprechaun – I was a 7 year old drag queen with a shaving problem! Stuff like that can ruin a guy in primary school… My brother went as Robin Hood & the elastic in his tights broke. He spent the whole day with his arse hanging out of his pants. Poor guys nearly 50 & he’s still traumatized. He goes into the foetal position if he sees a Robin Hood movie on TV. My sister got dressed as Prince Charming. Sounds cool.  But when you think about it my mum sent her to school as a dude! & my personal favourite… my wife got sent by her mum as a team costume with her sister.  Her mum dressed her sister as Dick Wittington & sent my wife as ‘and his cat’. Together, standing next to each other they looked great & made sense. “Dick Wittington & his Cat”. But unfortunately, my wife was in kindy & her sister was in year 4 – they didn’t stay together for long. So my poor wife had to walk around all day on her own with a sign that read “and his cat”. Nobody knew who she was – not even her! I still call her “& his cat” for kicks.

Those times were complete bedlam. Chaos! I remember kids walking around in garbage cans as R2D2 … people wrapped in aluminum foil as robots… mummys wrapped in toilet paper… kids just covered in cotton balls & socks – I still don’t know what they were supposed to be??  It was torturous… I’m surprised that there’s not a separate therapy group just for victims of book parades. I know I’d be a proud member of The VBP & I’d take & his cat along with me. Take Ray the Dalek, my cross dressing sister & my bum flashing brother along too!

 My next memory of fancy dress is a bit of a doozy & I have kept it repressed for as long as I could, but it’s time to come clean. It involves the story behind that comical & tragic photo at the top of the page. I’m about 7 or 8 & my parents get invited to a fancy dress party at one of their friend’s houses. My mum gets all excited & dresses the whole family up. She says it’s for kids and everything. Mum always had a thing for romantic literature so she decides to dress me up as Cyrano De Bergerac. You know him – The guy with the big nose who hides behind bushes & whispers poetry to his mate. Anyway, her version of Cyrano De Bergerac looks like this. Very tight Black tights. Big black pointy boots with silver buckles. A frilly white dress shirt with puffy sleeves. A bright purple padded parka that you’d wear to the snow. A big red cape. A round black hat with a huge apricot ostrich feather on top of it. A plastic sword on my hip & if that wasn’t enough… she draws a fake moustache on me & then glues this huge fake nose made of plasticine over my real nose. It was hard to breathe – & it made my 7 yr old voice even squeakier. Believe me I didn’t want to leave the house! But mum convinces me there’s cake waiting for me at the party. I’d like to say it took more than that – but I’d be lying – the 7 year old me would go anywhere for cake!

So anyway we get to the party & everything’s going great except for one thing. It’s an adult party – it’s not for kids! My mum got it wrong! Yes kids were invited, but not to the fancy dress party. What they were invited too was to be locked in the backroom & just sit there. You know the type of room – filled with angry teenagers & pre-pubescent’s that have been dragged to some crap party by their parents; Angry monosyllabic snarling youths. None of them dressed up or anything – just angry! They’re all wearing Kiss & Abba T-shirts & in rocks me in my purple parka, fake 4 inch nose & apricot ostrich feather on my head. They all look at me in disbelief & some kid with pimples all over his face snarls at me “Who the f@#! are you supposed to be?” & I say in a shaky voice “Cyrano De Bergerac” & another angry kid yells at me, “Who the f#@! Is that?” & I scream out in a sort of pig like squeal “I DON”T KNOW!!!” I can’t remember much after that – I think I may have passed out. Either from fright or the plasticine nose stopped me from breathing!

On the brighter side… at least now I know why Cyrano had to hide behind all those bushes!!!

 

 

 

Asterion Youtube Video

 

 

I always planned to do something like this for Asterion. It’s one of those poems that really comes to life when you read it aloud. Nothing like a bit of oxygen to get the fire going! Also it was kind of cool getting a chance to play the brooding bovine prince. We shot this over the weekend & had a bit of a laugh whilst doing it. although I think I nearly gave my dad & my dear old nan a heart attack when I showed my family an advanced screening on Saturday night. they don’t hear too well at the best of times. all dad heard were the parts about bestiality & nan thought I was just naked in a bull mask. which was kinda true! she looked quite shaken by the whole affair. lol! actually it was pretty funny. my sister & my wife thought it was hilarious!! hope you enjoy xx

 

but…be Warned!! The subconscious mind is a strange labyrinth. a winding waterway of dark & twisting streams. watch this more than three times & The Minotaur may find you in your dreams…

 

 

Asterion

 

 

Asterion

 

Located in Knossos just near King Minos’s Cretan Palace

In the centre of a labyrinth designed by Daedalus

The Brooding Dark Prince, with a penchant

for turning young men into blood & mince

A ruminant biped on hungry virgins fed

A prisoner never to be released

Pasiphae’s poor boy child

A wild roaring beast

Furious, Hideous

Incestuous

Lies

Lurking

The Bull of Minos

The Vengeance of Androgeus

The secret crimes of an old vain King

Hidden in a maze at the heart of all things

Locked inside the prison that pride and pain brings

We sometimes become closer to the monster we really are

 

But perhaps I go too far…

 

For our story truly begins

with the seed not the fruit of our sins

 

In a time before Aegeus threw himself into his own sea

& Ariadne led Theseus on a golden thread to victory

 

3500 years ago…

 

King Minos had a beautiful white bull

The most virile in all of Greece

It’s fleece like snow,

silk & ice

 

The God Poseidon wanted it for his sacrifice

 

Minos overcome with greed

betrayed the second son of Cronos for his need

Refusing to pay Poseidon, his patron god of the sea so high a price

He exchanged the bull before the sacred feast

in a gambit to suffice

Poseidon enraged

with fury

turned to Aphrodite

whose bewitching spell was then unleashed

Causing Queen Pasiphae to fall in love with the very same beast

 

His obsessions; his beloved bull,

his beautiful wife. His most coveted

possessions would become the ruination of his life

For in madness, drinking deep from its inverted cup

Pasiphae upon the poison chalice of lust then supped

Seeking false copulation in a contraption of Daedalus’s divination

Her perverted abnormal passions rose and with this white muscled

bovine entwined in the throws of ecstasy she mated

Her warped animal desires revealed, reciprocated

The shameful act of Minos concealed, lest he

be implicated by what his subjects saw

The fate of Crete sealed

Thus was created

 

The Minotaur

 

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 We all have Minotaur’s hidden within our hearts.

 

We all have desires, wants, needs, faults & flaws that we endeavour to keep locked away from the rest of the world. None of us are perfect. None of us are immune. We are all human. This world could never be that simple.

 

I’m not talking about monsters here. I’m not talking about staring into the abyss. But we definitely seem to be a beast that is in a constant struggle, locked within a tug-of-war with our own nature & divinity. At very best, we are strange inexplicable creatures that will never be fully explainable in all of our depth & essence. We are more self-aware than any other creature on this planet. Yet, we are more cut off from our instincts than any other creature on this planet. We are by far, the best & worst of what we have to offer. We are a mystery unto ourselves. Human hearts & minds are labyrinths. An enigma designed by God, yet forged in the jungle of mankind.

 

Perhaps, this is why I so love the theatre & pageantry of Greek Mythology; the deep complexity of its themes. They seem to grasp some fundamental element hidden away at the very base of the human core. The very fantastical nature of their stories pays homage to the bizarre intricacies of this human existence. They give flight to the great conundrum that is this riddle wrapped up in the encasement of human flesh.

 

& none more so, than that of The Tragic Bovine Boy Prince, Asterion. Better known as The MINOTAUR.

 

It seems I have always been fascinated by Greek Mythology, I can’t remember a time in my life that I wasn’t. Some of my earliest memorable daydreams are of the mighty winged horse, ‘Pegasus’. I’d sit in school, staring dreamily out the window & I’d imagine him swooping down from the clouds & carrying me off upon some great adventure. Normally, I would envision my school chums & teacher looking on with incredulous amazement as I waved goodbye & shouted aloud, ‘Adios Suckers!’

 

But, this time it’s been my pleasure to share the adventure & take you with me. I hope it has been entertaining, thought provoking & just a little bit scary.

 

So, until next time…‘ADIOS SUCKERS!’

 

 

The Little Things

  

 

A glass of water

The smile of your daughter

The smell of grass, a touch, a kiss

The simple things most people miss

 

The moon, the sun

The smoothness of a stone

The mountains covered in mist

The symphonies that exist within a lovers moan

The coolness of a breeze, the whispering of trees

 What do most people care for simple pleasures such as these?

 

Instead

We stare at our feet

When we walk down a city street

We ignore need for the sake of greed

We rip down forests & make rivers bleed

We hear an animals’ cry and we dismiss it

We poison the sky & we kick the earth when we should kiss it

 

What insanity, what vanity, what disdain

We have such a capacity for good

But seem bent on causing pain

 

We see ourselves at the top of the tree

We fool ourselves in the duplicity of our own divinity

Within our eager ascension to this planets throne

We have left ourselves isolated and alone

Within the complexity of our superiority

We have lost the ability to see

 

We have lost the simplicity

The simple truth hidden behind all the lies

 & that is…

 

We don’t need angels’ wings to see the beauty in things

We don’t need Gods’ permission to see the sun rise

 We just have to open our eyes

 

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Do you live?

Do you love?

Do you dance?

Do you still believe in a world filled with romance?

 

This world can be a beautiful inspiring place if you take the time to look

For beauty does not just belong in children’s books

Everyday people amaze me with their selflessness…

 

A mother putting her children first

An act of kindness unrehearsed

It can be big. It can be small

It doesn’t matter at all

 

All that matters is that it happens…

 

People fight unbelievable battles, bigotry & hate

They fight unbeatable illnesses, sadness & fate

They devote themselves to helping others,

to protecting animals, to feeding & clothing the poor

They dedicate themselves to giving more

 

They do it with such vitality, such willingness, such grace

They make this world a beautiful place

 

What about you?

How do you see the world?

How do you view it this very moment? this very day?

Do you see the light or does the darkness get in the way?

Do you see the beauty glimmering behind the curtain?

Or has this life left you uncertain?

 

Well…

I see it like this

I see it in all the little things a lot of people miss

 

This world can seem hard & unfair

A place where people don’t care

A world devoid of new beginnings

This life can seem like a lottery with no chance of winning

It can seem futile & unforgiving

For some people it can seem not worth living

 

Tomorrow we may die of cancer

Tomorrow we may get hit by a bus

This world is not permanent for all of us

This world is filled with things we can’t control

But we cannot let the darkness bind our soul.

 

For each new day

We have a chance to say, “This world begins anew”

A chance to fill our hearts with something beautiful.

Something true.

 

We have a chance to shine. A chance to be the light.

It doesn’t matter if we shine as bright as a star

It doesn’t matter if we blind the world with our brilliance.

It doesn’t matter if we shine like the simple sweet smile of a child.

It doesn’t matter if we shine with the gentle luminescence

of a kind thought or tender touch.

The wattage doesn’t matter much.

All that matters is that we shine

 

This world can seem angry, strange & cold.

We can forget the importance of ourselves sometimes.

We can lose ourselves in the dark.

Trapped by our own irrelevance, we cannot see for ourselves a way out.

But within this world there is a thread.

An almost intangible link. An essence that runs thru us all.

That entwines our existence to every living thing.

A divine commonality that connects us all.

A golden thread that is so delicate

it is almost lost to a world of darkness & self obsessions.

But it is held visible within the little things.

The simple things that most people miss.

A touch. A smile. A kiss.

It can seem almost insignificant.

But it is the thread that connects us all.

It is this thread that leads us to the big picture

It is this thread that gives us peace & allows us to shine

& when we shine the world becomes a little clearer.

 

For when we are gone,

the sun will still rise & the stars will still shine.

This world is not yours & this world is not mine.

This world will go on without us

 

The truth is we are not the stars of this play

At best we are merely spotlights in the stands

But for a time we have a chance to show the way

We hold the beacon in our hands

 

For we are the new sun that shines today

 

We are “Dies Natalis Solis Invicti!”

We are, “The Birthday of The Invincible Sun!”

& Our time upon this earth has just begun

 

What you choose to do with your time is your decision

 

But..

Remember this

 

If we shine, then we are the spark

If we shine, we can light up the dark

If we shine, then we can inspire

& If we all shine,

 

WE CAN SET THIS WORLD ON FIRE!!!

 

 

 

Leaves Meander From The Trees

 

 

 I love autumn.

It’s such a glorious time of year.  

I love the smell. I love the touch. I love the feel.

I lose myself within a patchwork world of oranges, yellows & reds.

I love these colours. They smother me with their brilliance.

They encompass me with their warmth. A warmth not born of the sun,

 but of open hearth fires, steaming bowls of soup & warm toasty blankets.

This time of year always makes me feel like a kid again.

 It brings to mind memories of walking home from school & marvelling

at the changing leaves of the Chinese tallowwoods that lined our street.

In visions of my childhood they are like fireworks blistering the silver sky.

 

My question for you is this:

Why is it that only animals and small children understand the glory of

rolling around unabashedly in autumn leaves?

 

The answer:

We never lose magic, we only take it away from ourselves.